poisoned`
I need to know if you were real
'Cause I've been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes
I'll say I'm always in the dark
You got me now
everytime i kiss you, it hurts
I can't remember how it went
You looked like everything I wanted
And as you came along
Slowly everything began to change
I got you now
...supposed to heal, bringing protection...
I need to know if you were real
I'd hate to think that I'd been fooled again
And as the vision fades
I'll say I was blinded by your eyes
I felt them burn
...it brings out the color of your eyes
'Cause I've been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes
I'll say I'm always in the dark
You got me now
everytime i kiss you, it hurts
I can't remember how it went
You looked like everything I wanted
And as you came along
Slowly everything began to change
I got you now
...supposed to heal, bringing protection...
I need to know if you were real
I'd hate to think that I'd been fooled again
And as the vision fades
I'll say I was blinded by your eyes
I felt them burn
...it brings out the color of your eyes
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7:34 PM
i had a cool but bittersweet dream last night. ok. mebbe this morning.
anyway. i forgot how it started but i can rmb i was on this topless airplane. and somehow it was tumbling in the air and i was trying to tighten my bloody seatbelt. and then the coffee bottle in my pocket (??) flew up (down?) and back towards aline and jeaness and audrey sitting far far behind. sth lidat.
then suddenly we have landed. uh aline they all were complaining about the stain my coffe made (chuckles) and we made our way across the desert-like terrain...uh then my companions turned into my relatives and we reached the foot of a cliff. someone said that we were staying there for the night. then we looked up and saw a pack on lions on the clifftop. but then there were red indians camping midway on the cliff so we reckoned we would be safe. then i forgot wat happened, but in my impression the lions became dinosaurs (go on. laugh.)
then i tink my parents went off in some vehicle and came back with someone whom did not have a face but i knew exactly who he was. my dragon. i seemed to be EXTREMELY relieved to see him and pounced for a very tight hug.
somewhere along this line i woke up for awhile, and my heart sank when i returned to reality. i was hugging my bolster. but i was STUBBORN and REFUSE to be strip of the only time i can be with him. so bloody hell, it was cold, i threw on my blankets and forced my way back into the dream.
but he was gone from my arms. i tink i was floating beside isaac sim when he was driving a car (?!?!?) past my primary school gate. right. he was asking me abt carpark advice. i said why dunt u park at the dinosaur land's multi-storey carpark. so he did. then i felt guilty cos i realised he could park for free in my pri school, but nvm. (GO ON. laugh or curse me for writing this rubbish to sink u)
and then...the driveway beside the cliff (?) became some sort of a...rock aquarium cum bar cum... ok. anyway, i was with him and i tink i was unhappy with him cos he ignored me. so i went to the bar beside the one he was at and chatted nonchalently to the bartender and some other person i cant rmb. then the space behind the bar became a pond of some kind and the idiot bartender started teaching me how to play some game involving aquatic 4-leaved clovers. (f!)
so then. i tink i was bloody hell depressed over my dragon still. and i dove INTO to the pond in atempt to search for the clovers but HELL, they were all gone. i sensed (and saw) him approaching and hid under the rock ceiling of the pond. (F!)
sth lidat and i dun rmb anything else le. when i woke up the first thing i rmb was the hug.
i was so pissed to be awake. but i didnt wanna lie there cos i may just break down and cry to my pathetic bolster. so i woke up half and hour earlier than usual and had proper breakfast. after which i promptly returned myself to the fantasy that stabs my heart repeatedly.
ok. i cant believe u read till here. now u noe why i sleep and 9pm on schooldays and yawn in classes.
Monday, December 19, 2005
eventuals
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anyway. i forgot how it started but i can rmb i was on this topless airplane. and somehow it was tumbling in the air and i was trying to tighten my bloody seatbelt. and then the coffee bottle in my pocket (??) flew up (down?) and back towards aline and jeaness and audrey sitting far far behind. sth lidat.
then suddenly we have landed. uh aline they all were complaining about the stain my coffe made (chuckles) and we made our way across the desert-like terrain...uh then my companions turned into my relatives and we reached the foot of a cliff. someone said that we were staying there for the night. then we looked up and saw a pack on lions on the clifftop. but then there were red indians camping midway on the cliff so we reckoned we would be safe. then i forgot wat happened, but in my impression the lions became dinosaurs (go on. laugh.)
then i tink my parents went off in some vehicle and came back with someone whom did not have a face but i knew exactly who he was. my dragon. i seemed to be EXTREMELY relieved to see him and pounced for a very tight hug.
somewhere along this line i woke up for awhile, and my heart sank when i returned to reality. i was hugging my bolster. but i was STUBBORN and REFUSE to be strip of the only time i can be with him. so bloody hell, it was cold, i threw on my blankets and forced my way back into the dream.
but he was gone from my arms. i tink i was floating beside isaac sim when he was driving a car (?!?!?) past my primary school gate. right. he was asking me abt carpark advice. i said why dunt u park at the dinosaur land's multi-storey carpark. so he did. then i felt guilty cos i realised he could park for free in my pri school, but nvm. (GO ON. laugh or curse me for writing this rubbish to sink u)
and then...the driveway beside the cliff (?) became some sort of a...rock aquarium cum bar cum... ok. anyway, i was with him and i tink i was unhappy with him cos he ignored me. so i went to the bar beside the one he was at and chatted nonchalently to the bartender and some other person i cant rmb. then the space behind the bar became a pond of some kind and the idiot bartender started teaching me how to play some game involving aquatic 4-leaved clovers. (f!)
so then. i tink i was bloody hell depressed over my dragon still. and i dove INTO to the pond in atempt to search for the clovers but HELL, they were all gone. i sensed (and saw) him approaching and hid under the rock ceiling of the pond. (F!)
sth lidat and i dun rmb anything else le. when i woke up the first thing i rmb was the hug.
i was so pissed to be awake. but i didnt wanna lie there cos i may just break down and cry to my pathetic bolster. so i woke up half and hour earlier than usual and had proper breakfast. after which i promptly returned myself to the fantasy that stabs my heart repeatedly.
ok. i cant believe u read till here. now u noe why i sleep and 9pm on schooldays and yawn in classes.
Monday, December 19, 2005
eventuals
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