poisoned`
I need to know if you were real
'Cause I've been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes
I'll say I'm always in the dark
You got me now
everytime i kiss you, it hurts
I can't remember how it went
You looked like everything I wanted
And as you came along
Slowly everything began to change
I got you now
...supposed to heal, bringing protection...
I need to know if you were real
I'd hate to think that I'd been fooled again
And as the vision fades
I'll say I was blinded by your eyes
I felt them burn
...it brings out the color of your eyes
'Cause I've been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes
I'll say I'm always in the dark
You got me now
everytime i kiss you, it hurts
I can't remember how it went
You looked like everything I wanted
And as you came along
Slowly everything began to change
I got you now
...supposed to heal, bringing protection...
I need to know if you were real
I'd hate to think that I'd been fooled again
And as the vision fades
I'll say I was blinded by your eyes
I felt them burn
...it brings out the color of your eyes
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happening`
7:27 PM
i realised that we havent learnt those 2 things yet. chey.
i've not thought about you for a long, long time.
sighh. read my 2nd gay story. i mean a proper one. once again im touched to tears. why? 'cos it's really ironic when you realise that the most desirable love is actually able to exist best, if not only, in a quite indesirable way. oh no, i dun think tt it's undesirable. i mean, the society feels that it's undesirable. maybe im wrong. i just feel tt it really takes true emotion to yank you thru so many social obstacles, not mentioning the fact tt you cant really have sex tgt.
i miss your laugh. i miss making you laugh. i miss you making me laugh.
first day of school, never thot i would end the day feeling so dam empty. having a loud song blasting at me now cos i simply wanna numb myself. this is about the most raw entry i've had for a very long time.
and most of all, i miss laughing with you.
i really need to thank alot of pple. even if you were the one who angered me, saddened me. guess i wouldnt give up the chance of meeting u guys, even if it means suffering so much. one person, i cannot mention the name. it hurts real bad. but i definitely would never change my mind if i had a yumemi to tell me what will happen to me. i dun think u'll ever know how much you mean to me. im sure you wont see this either. =) what irony.
i'm not sure how it went. u looked like everything i wanted. so i took.
i will work hard for my studies. i have no idea why. i just will. i hope it's not too late. thankyou everyone. im not gonna type names in case i leave sb out, but... i hope u'll understand who im talking abt.
the first time i took. the first time...and my breath had been taken away till now.
gays are more sensitive than you think. not so sure abt les. i prefer gays. so stop being discriminated against them.
why not me? maybe cos...i dunno.
the pain.
i've been avoiding it for weeks.
sadly,
sadly...
i've succeeded in ignoring it.
such that when i revisit the dream, i get torn deeper.
Monday, September 12, 2005
eventuals
___________________
i've not thought about you for a long, long time.
sighh. read my 2nd gay story. i mean a proper one. once again im touched to tears. why? 'cos it's really ironic when you realise that the most desirable love is actually able to exist best, if not only, in a quite indesirable way. oh no, i dun think tt it's undesirable. i mean, the society feels that it's undesirable. maybe im wrong. i just feel tt it really takes true emotion to yank you thru so many social obstacles, not mentioning the fact tt you cant really have sex tgt.
i miss your laugh. i miss making you laugh. i miss you making me laugh.
first day of school, never thot i would end the day feeling so dam empty. having a loud song blasting at me now cos i simply wanna numb myself. this is about the most raw entry i've had for a very long time.
and most of all, i miss laughing with you.
i really need to thank alot of pple. even if you were the one who angered me, saddened me. guess i wouldnt give up the chance of meeting u guys, even if it means suffering so much. one person, i cannot mention the name. it hurts real bad. but i definitely would never change my mind if i had a yumemi to tell me what will happen to me. i dun think u'll ever know how much you mean to me. im sure you wont see this either. =) what irony.
i'm not sure how it went. u looked like everything i wanted. so i took.
i will work hard for my studies. i have no idea why. i just will. i hope it's not too late. thankyou everyone. im not gonna type names in case i leave sb out, but... i hope u'll understand who im talking abt.
the first time i took. the first time...and my breath had been taken away till now.
gays are more sensitive than you think. not so sure abt les. i prefer gays. so stop being discriminated against them.
why not me? maybe cos...i dunno.
the pain.
i've been avoiding it for weeks.
sadly,
sadly...
i've succeeded in ignoring it.
such that when i revisit the dream, i get torn deeper.
Monday, September 12, 2005
eventuals
ripp`