poisoned`
I need to know if you were real
'Cause I've been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes
I'll say I'm always in the dark
You got me now
everytime i kiss you, it hurts
I can't remember how it went
You looked like everything I wanted
And as you came along
Slowly everything began to change
I got you now
...supposed to heal, bringing protection...
I need to know if you were real
I'd hate to think that I'd been fooled again
And as the vision fades
I'll say I was blinded by your eyes
I felt them burn
...it brings out the color of your eyes
'Cause I've been known to get it wrong
When the memory comes
I'll say I'm always in the dark
You got me now
everytime i kiss you, it hurts
I can't remember how it went
You looked like everything I wanted
And as you came along
Slowly everything began to change
I got you now
...supposed to heal, bringing protection...
I need to know if you were real
I'd hate to think that I'd been fooled again
And as the vision fades
I'll say I was blinded by your eyes
I felt them burn
...it brings out the color of your eyes
them`
happening`
11:37 AM
pls view my new blog at http://miodrago.blogspot.com
temporary skin.
awaiting lena...
Saturday, March 25, 2006
eventuals
___________________
5:17 PM new blog under construction.
pls blame lena for being busy d:
and i do check the board so can still tag.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
eventuals
___________________
8:55 PM i must reflect on today.
i got almost all the material goods i wanted. jersey, stainless steel ring(very unique!). yepp. and another shirt i would never dreamt of wearing. giordano junior! surprised by it (:
but then, i had to spoil the day by showing my bad temper X( sorry mum. and also my aunts. and jie. i guess im really no better than yu tian's son. god. what went into me i dunno. but i've gotta CHANGE. dammit. they are buying things for u. giving true and honest opinions. u dun go showing them a long face u fucking bastard.
ok. bastard signing off~
OH I ALMOST FORGOT. HAPPY NEW YEAR PPLE! (X
Sunday, January 01, 2006
eventuals
___________________
6:51 PM it's been long since i blogged.
been on a more happy and less angry mood these days, esp since i stopped feeding myself with HD stories and choking myself up...
went on 3 day trip to msia with my relatives of my mum's side. been looking forward to it somehow cos it's always really fun with them. first day we went times square and played almost the whole day. ^ ^ pulled becca and simei to the coaster so was real happy. they only sat one time but well, it's an accomplishment. (: anyway i've got nerd-nerd with me so it's not as bad as when i was ALONE usually. marcus and adeline couldnt ride many, but well. ^ ^
then we went genting the next day...it rained. and the 3 morons decided to go bowling a couple pf hours after we went in so my mood was pretty foul. budden the rest of us queued tgt after the rain..and made fools of ourselves in front of everybody by singing at the top of our voices. we earned somebody's praise of 'siao gina' in one queue. simei and becca were pretty pissd but i was pretty happy all the same. ^ ^
third day we finally went shopping with the adults. durgh. bought shades and hairclips and a necklace and FOOOOOD (: yeah. thats about it. cant wait for next yr's trip.
ok. next. classes! im going to 302 next yr. so is jess, jiacong, rahchel...and some others i cant rmb. oh yeah, anzie and wenyu. coolness. but well. i would rather not change classes. i noe lena's rather sad abt it. and so is sher. and i hate to see this. but i have no zi ge to comfort them cos im positive if not neutral abt the my allocation. =/ well. i hate it.
wat next? OH YA. i simply LURVE bai se ju ta. ITS GOOD OKAYY SO WAKE UP. honestly its the only show that when i watch...i dun realise they are acting. its that good. at least to me.
yupp. anyway...other then that....i gues im dreading school reopening. evn tho im no longer dpressd and angry. im more confident. and less suicidal. i turn to orange more to black now.
what.
tada.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
eventuals
___________________
7:34 PM i had a cool but bittersweet dream last night. ok. mebbe this morning.
anyway. i forgot how it started but i can rmb i was on this topless airplane. and somehow it was tumbling in the air and i was trying to tighten my bloody seatbelt. and then the coffee bottle in my pocket (??) flew up (down?) and back towards aline and jeaness and audrey sitting far far behind. sth lidat.
then suddenly we have landed. uh aline they all were complaining about the stain my coffe made (chuckles) and we made our way across the desert-like terrain...uh then my companions turned into my relatives and we reached the foot of a cliff. someone said that we were staying there for the night. then we looked up and saw a pack on lions on the clifftop. but then there were red indians camping midway on the cliff so we reckoned we would be safe. then i forgot wat happened, but in my impression the lions became dinosaurs (go on. laugh.)
then i tink my parents went off in some vehicle and came back with someone whom did not have a face but i knew exactly who he was. my dragon. i seemed to be EXTREMELY relieved to see him and pounced for a very tight hug.
somewhere along this line i woke up for awhile, and my heart sank when i returned to reality. i was hugging my bolster. but i was STUBBORN and REFUSE to be strip of the only time i can be with him. so bloody hell, it was cold, i threw on my blankets and forced my way back into the dream.
but he was gone from my arms. i tink i was floating beside isaac sim when he was driving a car (?!?!?) past my primary school gate. right. he was asking me abt carpark advice. i said why dunt u park at the dinosaur land's multi-storey carpark. so he did. then i felt guilty cos i realised he could park for free in my pri school, but nvm. (GO ON. laugh or curse me for writing this rubbish to sink u)
and then...the driveway beside the cliff (?) became some sort of a...rock aquarium cum bar cum... ok. anyway, i was with him and i tink i was unhappy with him cos he ignored me. so i went to the bar beside the one he was at and chatted nonchalently to the bartender and some other person i cant rmb. then the space behind the bar became a pond of some kind and the idiot bartender started teaching me how to play some game involving aquatic 4-leaved clovers. (f!)
so then. i tink i was bloody hell depressed over my dragon still. and i dove INTO to the pond in atempt to search for the clovers but HELL, they were all gone. i sensed (and saw) him approaching and hid under the rock ceiling of the pond. (F!)
sth lidat and i dun rmb anything else le. when i woke up the first thing i rmb was the hug.
i was so pissed to be awake. but i didnt wanna lie there cos i may just break down and cry to my pathetic bolster. so i woke up half and hour earlier than usual and had proper breakfast. after which i promptly returned myself to the fantasy that stabs my heart repeatedly.
ok. i cant believe u read till here. now u noe why i sleep and 9pm on schooldays and yawn in classes.
Monday, December 19, 2005
eventuals
___________________
6:40 PM im so angry wif myself.
wad de hell went wrong? dammit i never liked the emphasis on pointing toes.
dammit. i gotta rest. FOR 2 WHOLE WEEKS! kuss!
bloody hell. im sorry pple. i just hope fiona is right.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
eventuals
___________________
6:47 PM those who have been tagged!
rules of the game: post 5 weird facts about yourself.
at the end, list 5 people to do the same.
leave a tag on their board, saying:"you are tagged". and they have to do the same!
rite. that chunk was copied from aline's blog. hmph so mah fan.
haha but nvm i'll do it for the sake of aline =D
hehe.
1` i get really depressed when im alone. and think abt real stupid things. but wen i get to have pple around me, i imediately change mode and go crazy.
2` i love hugging pple. it freaks pple out, but i just love the feeling, however superficial, of security. ^ ^
3` im confused by a-guas. i'll be thinking: "walau why didnt u tell me! i gladly exchange place wif u!"
4` i refuse to eat sharksfin. totally. and one day im gonna become vegetarian. i hate my relatives for trying to make me see how stupid i am and convince me that sharks are bred in captivity. hogwash.
5` manicures will NEVER work for me.
ok im done. now, who shal i get?
hmmmm....
-lena (when she's back)
-leeqi
-grace
-simei
-jiayi
ahahaha...aline says it's "spreading the joy".
Saturday, December 03, 2005
eventuals
___________________
temporary skin.
awaiting lena...
Saturday, March 25, 2006
eventuals
5:17 PM new blog under construction.
pls blame lena for being busy d:
and i do check the board so can still tag.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
eventuals
8:55 PM i must reflect on today.
i got almost all the material goods i wanted. jersey, stainless steel ring(very unique!). yepp. and another shirt i would never dreamt of wearing. giordano junior! surprised by it (:
but then, i had to spoil the day by showing my bad temper X( sorry mum. and also my aunts. and jie. i guess im really no better than yu tian's son. god. what went into me i dunno. but i've gotta CHANGE. dammit. they are buying things for u. giving true and honest opinions. u dun go showing them a long face u fucking bastard.
ok. bastard signing off~
OH I ALMOST FORGOT. HAPPY NEW YEAR PPLE! (X
Sunday, January 01, 2006
eventuals
6:51 PM it's been long since i blogged.
been on a more happy and less angry mood these days, esp since i stopped feeding myself with HD stories and choking myself up...
went on 3 day trip to msia with my relatives of my mum's side. been looking forward to it somehow cos it's always really fun with them. first day we went times square and played almost the whole day. ^ ^ pulled becca and simei to the coaster so was real happy. they only sat one time but well, it's an accomplishment. (: anyway i've got nerd-nerd with me so it's not as bad as when i was ALONE usually. marcus and adeline couldnt ride many, but well. ^ ^
then we went genting the next day...it rained. and the 3 morons decided to go bowling a couple pf hours after we went in so my mood was pretty foul. budden the rest of us queued tgt after the rain..and made fools of ourselves in front of everybody by singing at the top of our voices. we earned somebody's praise of 'siao gina' in one queue. simei and becca were pretty pissd but i was pretty happy all the same. ^ ^
third day we finally went shopping with the adults. durgh. bought shades and hairclips and a necklace and FOOOOOD (: yeah. thats about it. cant wait for next yr's trip.
ok. next. classes! im going to 302 next yr. so is jess, jiacong, rahchel...and some others i cant rmb. oh yeah, anzie and wenyu. coolness. but well. i would rather not change classes. i noe lena's rather sad abt it. and so is sher. and i hate to see this. but i have no zi ge to comfort them cos im positive if not neutral abt the my allocation. =/ well. i hate it.
wat next? OH YA. i simply LURVE bai se ju ta. ITS GOOD OKAYY SO WAKE UP. honestly its the only show that when i watch...i dun realise they are acting. its that good. at least to me.
yupp. anyway...other then that....i gues im dreading school reopening. evn tho im no longer dpressd and angry. im more confident. and less suicidal. i turn to orange more to black now.
what.
tada.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
eventuals
7:34 PM i had a cool but bittersweet dream last night. ok. mebbe this morning.
anyway. i forgot how it started but i can rmb i was on this topless airplane. and somehow it was tumbling in the air and i was trying to tighten my bloody seatbelt. and then the coffee bottle in my pocket (??) flew up (down?) and back towards aline and jeaness and audrey sitting far far behind. sth lidat.
then suddenly we have landed. uh aline they all were complaining about the stain my coffe made (chuckles) and we made our way across the desert-like terrain...uh then my companions turned into my relatives and we reached the foot of a cliff. someone said that we were staying there for the night. then we looked up and saw a pack on lions on the clifftop. but then there were red indians camping midway on the cliff so we reckoned we would be safe. then i forgot wat happened, but in my impression the lions became dinosaurs (go on. laugh.)
then i tink my parents went off in some vehicle and came back with someone whom did not have a face but i knew exactly who he was. my dragon. i seemed to be EXTREMELY relieved to see him and pounced for a very tight hug.
somewhere along this line i woke up for awhile, and my heart sank when i returned to reality. i was hugging my bolster. but i was STUBBORN and REFUSE to be strip of the only time i can be with him. so bloody hell, it was cold, i threw on my blankets and forced my way back into the dream.
but he was gone from my arms. i tink i was floating beside isaac sim when he was driving a car (?!?!?) past my primary school gate. right. he was asking me abt carpark advice. i said why dunt u park at the dinosaur land's multi-storey carpark. so he did. then i felt guilty cos i realised he could park for free in my pri school, but nvm. (GO ON. laugh or curse me for writing this rubbish to sink u)
and then...the driveway beside the cliff (?) became some sort of a...rock aquarium cum bar cum... ok. anyway, i was with him and i tink i was unhappy with him cos he ignored me. so i went to the bar beside the one he was at and chatted nonchalently to the bartender and some other person i cant rmb. then the space behind the bar became a pond of some kind and the idiot bartender started teaching me how to play some game involving aquatic 4-leaved clovers. (f!)
so then. i tink i was bloody hell depressed over my dragon still. and i dove INTO to the pond in atempt to search for the clovers but HELL, they were all gone. i sensed (and saw) him approaching and hid under the rock ceiling of the pond. (F!)
sth lidat and i dun rmb anything else le. when i woke up the first thing i rmb was the hug.
i was so pissed to be awake. but i didnt wanna lie there cos i may just break down and cry to my pathetic bolster. so i woke up half and hour earlier than usual and had proper breakfast. after which i promptly returned myself to the fantasy that stabs my heart repeatedly.
ok. i cant believe u read till here. now u noe why i sleep and 9pm on schooldays and yawn in classes.
Monday, December 19, 2005
eventuals
6:40 PM im so angry wif myself.
wad de hell went wrong? dammit i never liked the emphasis on pointing toes.
dammit. i gotta rest. FOR 2 WHOLE WEEKS! kuss!
bloody hell. im sorry pple. i just hope fiona is right.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
eventuals
6:47 PM those who have been tagged!
rules of the game: post 5 weird facts about yourself.
at the end, list 5 people to do the same.
leave a tag on their board, saying:"you are tagged". and they have to do the same!
rite. that chunk was copied from aline's blog. hmph so mah fan.
haha but nvm i'll do it for the sake of aline =D
hehe.
1` i get really depressed when im alone. and think abt real stupid things. but wen i get to have pple around me, i imediately change mode and go crazy.
2` i love hugging pple. it freaks pple out, but i just love the feeling, however superficial, of security. ^ ^
3` im confused by a-guas. i'll be thinking: "walau why didnt u tell me! i gladly exchange place wif u!"
4` i refuse to eat sharksfin. totally. and one day im gonna become vegetarian. i hate my relatives for trying to make me see how stupid i am and convince me that sharks are bred in captivity. hogwash.
5` manicures will NEVER work for me.
ok im done. now, who shal i get?
hmmmm....
-lena (when she's back)
-leeqi
-grace
-simei
-jiayi
ahahaha...aline says it's "spreading the joy".
Saturday, December 03, 2005
eventuals
ripp`